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Letters from a Living Dead Man


LETTER

 

Introduction

I.

The Return

II.

Tell No Man

III.

Guarding the Door

IV.

A Cloud on the Mirror

V.

The Promise of Things Untold

VI.

The Wand of Will

VII.

A Light behind the Veil

VIII.

The Iron Grip of Matter

IX.

Where Souls go up and down.

X.

A Rendezvous in the Fourth Dimension

XI.

The Boy–Lionel

XII.

The Pattern World

XIII.

Forms Real and Unreal

XIV.

A Folio of Paracelsus

XV.

A Roman Toga

XVI.

A Thing to be forgotten

XVII.

The Second Wife over there

XVIII.

Individual Hells

XIX.

A little Home in Heaven

XX.

The Man who found God

XXI.

The Leisure of the Soul

XXII.

The Serpent of Eternity

XXIII.

A Brief for the Defendant

XXIV.

Forbidden Knowledge

XXV.

A Shadowless World

XXVI.

Circles in the Sand

XXVII.

The Magic Ring

XXVIII.

Except ye be as Little Children

XXIX.

An Unexpected Warning

XXX.

The Sylph and the Magician

XXXI.

A problem in Celestial Mathematics

.XXXII.

A Change of Focus

XXXIII.

Five Resolutions

XXXIV.

The Passing of Lionel

XXXV.

The Beautiful Being

XXXVI.

The Hollow Sphere

XXXVII.

An Empty China Cup

XXXVIII.

Where Time is not

XXXIX.

The Doctrine of Death

XL.

The Celestial Hierarchy

XLI.

The Darling of the Unseen

XLII.

A Victim of the Non-existent

XLIII.

A Cloud of Witnesses

XLIV.

The Kingdom Within

XLV.

The Game of Make-believe

XLVI.

Heirs of Hermes

XLVII.

Only a Song

XLVIII.

Invisible Gifts at Yuletide

XLIX.

The Greater Dreamland

L.

A Sermon and a Promise

LI.

The April of the World

LII.

A Happy Widower

LIII.

The Archives of the Soul

LIV.

A Formula for Mastership


 

 

LETTER XXXIV

 THE PASSING OF LIONEL

I have lost my boy Lionel. He has gone—I started to say the way of all flesh; but I must revise the figure and say the way of all spirits, sooner or later, and that way is back to the earth.
     One day not long ago I found him absorbed in thought in our favorite resting-place, the little hut beside the stream at the foot of a wooded hill, which I told you about in one of my former letters.
     I waited for a time until the boy opened his eyes and looked at me.
     “Father,” he said, “my favorite teacher is going to be married to-morrow.”
     “How do you know?” I asked.
     “Why, I have been listening!” he answered. “Every little while I go back and pay her a visit, though she does not know I am there. I have been aware that there was something in the wind.”

     “Why?”
     “Because she has been so shining; there is a light around her which was not there before.”
     “What caused the light, Lionel?”
     “Well, I suppose she is what they call in love.”
     “You are a phenomenally wise child,” I said.
     He looked at me with his large, honest eyes.
     “I am not really a child at all,” he answered. “I am as old as the hills, as you, or as anybody. Have you not told me that we are all immortal, without end or beginning?”
     “Yes, but go on, tell me about your teacher.”
     “She is in love with the big brother of one of my playfellows. I used to know him when I was a little boy. He let me use his magnet, and taught me kite-flying, and showed me how machinery went. He is an engineer.”
     “Oh!” I said. “In this case, of course, you are glad that your favorite teacher is going to marry him.”
     Lionel’s eyes were larger than ever as he said:
     “I shall be sorry to leave you, Father; but it is a chance I cannot afford to miss.”
     “What!”
     “It is my opportunity to go back. I’ve been watching for it a long time.”
     “But are you ready?”
     “What is it to be ready? I want to go.”

     “And leave me?”
     “I shall find you again. And—Oh, Father!—when you come back I shall be older than you.” This idea seemed to delight him.
     I was still human enough to be sorry that the boy was going of his own free will; but as will is free, I would not make any effort to detain him. Though young in that form, which had not yet had time to grow up in the tenuous world since he came out as a child, yet he was old in thought.
     “Yes,” I said, “perhaps you can help me along when I also shall be a child again.”
     “You see,” he went on, “with a father like Victor I shall learn all I want to know about machinery—that is, all that he can teach me; but when I am grown I shall find out for myself many things which he does not know. You remember the little machine I have been working with, up in the pattern world?”
     “Yes.”
     “When I am back on the earth I shall make it a reality. Why, it actually runs now with the electricity from my fingers!”
     “But will it, when you have fixed it in material form, in steel, or whatever it is to be made of?”
     “Yes, of course it will. It is my intention. I shall be a famous man.”

     “But supposing that somebody else finds it first?”
     “I don’t think anybody will.”
     “Shall I help you to lay a spell around the pattern, so that no one can touch it?”
     “Could you do that, Father?”
     “I think so.”
     “Then let us go up there at once,” he said, “and do it immediately. I may have to leave this world in a day or two.”
     I could not help smiling at the boy’s desire to hurry. Doubtless he would be present at that wedding, and I should see little or nothing of him afterwards.
     We went up to the pattern world, and with his assistance I drew a circle around the little machine—a spell which, I think, will protect it until he is ready to make his claim.

     Oh inspiration! Oh invention! Genius! Little do the men of earth know the meaning of those words. Perhaps the poet’s famous poem was sung before his birth; perhaps the engineer’s invention lay in the pattern world, protected by his spell, while he grew to manhood and advanced in science and made ready to claim it for his own, his prior and spiritual creation. Perhaps, when two men discover or invent the same thing at about the same time, one has succeeded in appropriating the design which the other left behind him when he came back to earth. Sometimes, perhaps, both have taken from the invisible the creation of a third man, who still awaits rebirth.
     Lionel babbled on to me about the life to come, and of what a charming mother Miss –– would be. She had always been good to him.
     “Perhaps,” I said, “many of us who return almost immediately, as you hope to do, seek out those who have been good to us in a former life.”
     “There is another point,” Lionel said. Miss –– is a friend of my own mother, the one I left a few years ago. It will be so good to have her hold my hand again.”
     “Do you think she will recognise you?” I asked.
     “Who knows? She believes in rebirth.”
     “How can you say that? You were so little when you came out!”
     “I was seven years old, and already she had told me that we live many lives on earth.”
     “Bless the souls who first brought that belief to the Western world!” I exclaimed. “And now, my boy, is there anything I can do for you after you leave me?”

     “Yes, of course; you can watch over my new mother, and warn her if any danger threatens her or me.”
     “Then make me acquainted with her now.”
     We went out into the material world, the boy and I. Already I have told you how we go.
     He took me to a little house in one of the suburbs of Boston. We entered a room—it was then about eleven o’clock at night upon that part of the earth,––and I saw a fair young woman kneeling beside her bed, praying to God that he would bless the union of the morrow which was to give her to the man she loved.
     Lionel went close to her and threw his arms about her neck.
     She started, as if she actually felt the contact, and sprang to her feet.
     Miss ––, Miss ––, don’t you know me?” he cried; but while I could hear him, she evidently could not, though she looked about her in a half-frightened way.
     Then, supposing that the touch and the presence she felt were imaginary, she again fell upon her knees and went on with her interrupted prayer.

     “Come away,” I said to the boy; and we left her there with her dreams and her devotions.
     That was the last I saw of Lionel. He bade me good-bye, saying:
     “I shall stay near her for a few days. Perhaps I shall go back and forth, from her to you; but if I do not return, I will meet you again in a few years.”
     “Yes,” I said, “it is affinity and desire which draw souls together, either on earth or in the other world.”

           

     When next I met the Teacher I told him about Lionel, and asked him if he thought the boy would come out to me now and then, after his life on earth had begun, as an unborn entity in the shelter of his mother’s form.
     “Probably not,” he replied. “If he were an adept soul, he might do that; but with a soul of even high development, lacking real adeptship, it would be impossible.”
     “Yet,” I said, “men living on earth do come out here in dreams.”
     “Yes, but when the soul enters matter, preparing for rebirth, it enters potentiality, if we may use the term, and all its strength is needed in the herculean effort to form the new body and adjust to it. After birth, when the eyes are opened, and the lungs are expanded to the air, the task is easier, and there may be left enough unused energy to bridge the gulf.

     “But,” he went on, “those who are soon to be mothers are often vaguely conscious of the souls they harbour. Even when they do not grasp the full significance of the miracle that is being performed through them, they have strange dreams and visions, which are mostly glimpses into the past incarnations of the unborn child. They see dream countries where the entity within has dwelt in the past; they feel desires which they cannot explain—reflected desires which are merely the latent yearnings of the unborn one; they experience groundless fears which are its former dreads and terrors. The mother who nourishes a truly great soul, during this period of formation may herself grow spiritually beyond her own unaided possibility; while the mother of an unborn criminal often develops strange perversities, quite unlike her normal state of mind.
     “If a woman were sufficiently intelligent and informed, she could judge from her own feelings and ideas what sort of soul was to be her child some day, and prepare to guide it accordingly. More knowledge is needed, here as elsewhere.”
     So, as in all my experiences, I learned something through the passing out of Lionel.

LETTER XXXV

LETTER XXXIII